So at first I was like:

and

and

but now I’m like

and

and

what do i do with myself the reason for my existence is over

I’m serious.

I spent the past two years systematically destroying my health over this program because real life decided to get in the way and I just.

Had absolutely no ability to manage my stress, anxiety or health properly.

So now I’m here, trying to get over the near nervous breakdowns I went through.

And I realize that a major source of all of my pain is finally done.

That things are starting to stabilize again.

That finally, I can have a bit of freedom until summer starts and I look for a job or whatever.

But…

But how do I get over such a huge part of my life?

Because IB was my life for the past couple of years.

And I finished all of that yesterday.

It’s over.

There’s nothing left of it anymore except for whatever grade I’ll get.

And I can’t come to terms with that.

I’m trying but it’s just…

It’s not happening.

I think I’m actually ready to cry, but whether from joy, sorrow, or just frustrating confusion, I don’t know anymore.

Can I even still call myself an IB Kid now that I’m done the program?

I’m not even sure…